I'm done
I'm done with this game.
I'm done with the fact my faction is dead. The faction I've spent months of efforts to maintain and keep active, months that felt like extremely unfun work (instead of what they should have been, fun - because it's a video game and games are supposed to be fun, right?), and now it's so dead that I can't even delegate any leader duties to others, because literally all who is left are people who are already in leadership positions, those who aren't interested, and newbies. Starmourn is not a big game right now and none of the factions are particularly big, but neither Song nor SH are as dead as CA is, and I can't shake the feeling I'm responsible for that somehow.
I'm done with the PvP community, and being constantly told to git gud because I can't win a 2v4 fight or because I have an opinion that goes against the grain, such as deciding not to use mudlet (which I find ugly and unappealing). I'm done with PvP itself being high stakes and how it's apparently a controversial opinion not to want to lose hard earned ingame resources in a one-sided conflict for minimal gain. When I tried to instill a sense of not being a griefer in the community, I experienced intense pushback time and time again, both from people who think it's in-character so it's okay to do, and those who think it's just a game so you shouldn't worry so much about what happens in it. Nevermind that the ingame losses suffered still require time to recoup, sometimes hours of time wasted that are no less real just because you spend them in a game.
I'm done with my efforts at RP falling flat, having found myself challenged to write interesting emotes and things to say and feeling extremely inadequate for it.
I came to Starmourn with a goal in mind, to be a great and memorable player, but in the end the only memorable thing I achieved is the number of OOC arguments I've caused. Everything else was an uphill battle that ended in failure and I no longer have the motivation to deal with that. Dropping the game and nothing of value is lost.
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I want to avoid a situation where everyone wonders where I went and what happened to me. Also judging by replies/reactions to this thread, me leaving should make at least some people happy.
You air them by attacking everyone around you, especially those that disagree with you, instead of actually suggesting things that could be done and working with those around you to achieve them. I've seen multiple people dread engaging with you on these topics because of the way you approach both the topics and those who respond.
You have made it clear, though your posts and chats, that you do not want to be part of this community. Rather, you want this community to cater to you.
And it's that part that I'm pleased is leaving.
I honestly feel bad that you feel this way, and that it was all sparked from a differing of opinions in an out of character chat, then you got upset from dying in a fair 1v1 in an open pk area. I have never felt out of place in starmourn, I haven't ever tried to make the game unfun for you.
I do have a few points to make though.
1.) If you die in an open world pk zone, there are multiple ways to avoid this in the future
-Dont go into open world pk zones
-if you just want your inr back and its being held by someone, and you dont want to fight for it, either ask in an out of character way or stop being lazy and kill 10 mobs to get that 3% back
2.) If you feel detached from the community ie the feeling noone likes you, or that people tend to speak down to you.
-Try making friends, Don't be so stuck up about things. Generally people are nice.
-While things like dying, or having a differing opinion might make you mad. Dont go cry things are unfair Its generally offputting to other players, the world is a vast world that doesnt revolve around you. We are all just players in this world.
3.) Complaining in a forum post is also generally offputting to new players who are looking into the game for the first time. Having such a post will likely push potential new players away, These players that you say CA is so desperately lacking. Most of your complaints originate with you. I wouldnt want new players to be given the impression that you seem to have developed about this game as it is completely wrong.
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flame me if I'm wrong
(Cesspool): Nykara says, "I use mudlet."
(Cesspool): Nykara says, "Well, okay. In my 15 years of
MUDding I've never used numpad walking it's so awkward and
awful."
(Cesspool): You say, "Woah toxic."
(Cesspool): You say, "People who play starcraft with only
mouse have more apm than that."
(Cesspool): Ren says, "There's only so many buttons on a
keyboard so you can't physically macro everything."
(Cesspool): Nykara says, "This is 2019."
(Cesspool): Nykara says, "I use mudlet."
(Cesspool): You(Soza) say, "Woah toxic."
(Cesspool): You say, "I walk with numpad."
The fact that you're still engaging with this thread means one of two things. Either you're hoping the community and game will change for you (see my point above) or you're doing it for attention.
Either way this thread is bad and you should feel bad about posting it.
I am engaging with the thread because there is still discussion to be made and points to address, especially whenever there is something I'd like to make more clear.
ps. ignore how broke I am
The first thing you do is stop going on the forums to bitch. That's just basic image/PR. I've had CA players flat-out tell me they're not sure they want to stay in CA because of your forum posts, and I've had newbies tell me they're not sure if CA was the right choice because "Cubey says it's bad."
f13 is just a clicky button, but the rest are functional and clicky. I should remove the tag f13 from it though also aesthetically, anything you can do in nexus, you can do in mudlet.
Caches are meant for group combat! They are a rough place to be and I die a lot in them. Enough that it cuts down on my down time and keeps me busy! Cause unless you are min maxed then there is more grind to do. There are quests also that you can do. We have events constantly going on. Do those!
A bunch of us want you to address your behavior on the forums. But nobody's flat-out like "Eyy, fuck Cubey." Not seriously, anyway.
This is a very accepting, welcoming, and even loving community if you let it be.